And it's going to fucking KILL when he goes

I've been my ex-boyfriend's best friend recently. It's been great for me.

No it's not. It's been fucking TERRI-bad. But that's not the point.

The point is, it's been great because I missed him so much in my life. I value him so much. And it was really nice to be needed by someone who I value so much. But he doesn't need me so much anymore. And there are new women in his life. And I'm getting this feeling like he's going to find his THAT person soon. And it's going to fucking kill me when that happens. Because then I'll lose him like I lost him before.

I need to be stronger. I need to be better. I need to find my THAT person. I need to make myself happy.

I mean, none of those things are going to happen for me anytime soon, but a girl can dream, right?